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I suck.
So I was doing pretty good till I got home. I decided to eat Lasanga(300 cal) and once I started, I couldn't help it and ate Ice Cream (140)and a cookie(80) and a PB Bagel(220).
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME! JUST TODAY WHEN I FINALLY HAD THE NERVE TO WEAR ONE OF THOSE TIGHT HOLLISTER TANK TOPS AND EVERYONE KEPT COMPLIMENTING ON MY STOMACH WAS FLAT! SHIT I JUST RUINED MY LIFE.
WITH 2 DAYS LEFT TILL MY BIRTHDAY! I'M RETHINKING ABOUT ME GOING NORMAL ON MY BIRTHDAY. I'M GOING TO STICK TO 1000 CALS ON THAT DAY!
Mascara and eyeliner is running down my eyes.
I need help.
What should I do?
I can't leave the house. And crunches won't work(but still doing it). I won't puke it, I'm not good at it.
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| Hello loves.
Today was a good great! day for me. All I ate was just 2 small (like sharing ripped off) pieces of cookies (roughly 30 calories) and drink sugar free lemonade which was 15 calories, and very filling(had it for 2 classes).
Just now, I have been informed by next week, I will be getting a HUGE trampoline in my backyard, and I just found out by this website:http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/calories_burned.asp?exercise=211, I can lose up to 120 calories on the trampoline. But I also found out that since this summer I will also be playing an hour of tennis, I can lose up to 300 calories each session (6 sessions!) and for track, I can lose up to 360-420 calories per session (5!), which leads to a total of 3750 calories. And I’m planning to jump on the trampoline for a half-hour to a full hour everyday, which is 120-240 calories per day! Now that’s awesome! more to say later xox yasmin!
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| Hey Babes!
So last night if you remeber, I accidently got tempted and ate 2 SMALL peices of chicken, which was a total of 50 cals, all thanks to my mom who made me make dinner. THATS WORSE THAN THEM TALKING ABOUT MY WEIGHT! But atleast it finished of my 200 calories for that day.. with 10 cals to spare.
Today this morning, I ate one pancake which was a total of 300 calories. I have 100 cals left but I'm only using that in case of dizziness or emergency. So yeah. I'm all good!
Ahh! My birthday is coming up! I want to get in shape by then. Then I'm binging as a birthday present.. but no more then 1000 cals. 1500 at the most. Then from then till June I'll stay on my ABC diet.
A- Nothing
B- 200 cals
C- 400 cals
So yeah. I'm content at the moment.
Is it normal not to feel hungry?
OMG I don't know if I told you, but this summer I made sure I was busy to death!
June- Driver's Ed.. ehh! I have to pack a lunch/snack so I'm going to take my water and just say I eat at home, and I forgot my stuff!
July(beginning)- Tennis.. and its like at night 5:30-6:30pm so I can avoid dinner, and just say I ate there.
July(late)- Track.. RUNNING! All I need is water..loads since its from 9am-11am.
And since it ends in August, all of august I can concentrate on my new look. New clothes, new stuff, new hair, etc.
And I will find a mini-august thing.
But the thing that I'm worried about is my grandma coming. She literally makes me eat. So I have to find ways to eat before her, and excuses.
HELP!
But I'm so proud of myself so far! 5 days left till my birthday!! - Location:bedroom
- Mood:cheerful
 - Music:stupid shit- girlicious
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| Sorry I couldn't post yesterday.. but
I didn't eat anything really for a full 24 hrs! Well 2 peices of gum and 2 small french fries. Today I ate only a bowl of cereal which was only 140 calories, and alot of water.
I've been noticing that my lips have been getting drier, and drier. Its ridculous.
Anyways since this is the frist of May(or second, you know what I mean), I am planning to fast until my birthday(May 8th) and on my birthday, enjoy eating again(but only 1000 cal tops) and start my fast again but I don't know when to excatly stop. I told my dad that I wanted to get involed in sports, so my dad enrolled me in Tennis and Track. Each have 5-6 classes. So I'm going to drink ALOT of water.
xxx
Kay, I'm back
So today I was thinking, my stomach isn't feeling flat? Is this normal?
OH and does gum have calories?
- Mood:confused
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| Soo I had about 510 cals today, so it wasn't so bad... until my mom made me eat rice!
HOW MANY DANG CALORIES IN RICE?!?!
EITHER WAY, I WENT OVER MY LIMIT!!
I'm so mad, I'm literally cry. I want to be skinny SO bad.
HELP!
OH AND THE SONG CORAZON-PRIMA J HELPS ALOT!!!
LISTEN TO IT AND TELL ME WHATCHA THINK!
Thanks lovelies!
And good luck! - Location:home
- Mood:crushed
 - Music:corazon-prima j
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| I just noticed, I need to find good title subjects for my journals. Anyways, today Cristina didn't come. Skittlez(this guy who likes her real name: Tryrik), asked me where she was, and when I told him that she was sick, he panicked like she was going to die! He was like "Whats wrong with her!??! What does she have?!?!" and I looked at him blankly like he went mad and just replied "She has a cold?". He likes her too much. But too bad she has a boyfriend, because she's goregous enough to have one while others go after her, and she has the body I want.. ok I'm going to far with this..
So today this is what I ate:
Nutrioal Chewy Bar...........180
Chicken Sandwich............ 300-400?
Thats all. I almost ate pancakes and a peanut butter jelly sandwich. I refused.
Yayy!
While on this topic, I'm listening to a good song, Corazon(You're not alone) by Prima J. Such a good thinspiration song!
So today, I decided to make a AnaFolder. Make thinspiration and tips and tricks to read when I get a cravining. Hopefully it will help.
Oh and I got in trouble today. With my sister. I hate her now. She's not talking to me. But I don't care. (She's 13 by the way. I remeber thoses days..)
HOT HOT HOT, LEMME BREAK THE ICE!
KK bye. - Location:homeeee
- Mood:bouncy
 - Music:break the ice- britney spears
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| Some thinspirational websites, that helped me ALOT!
If you know some more, please send me a message or comment.. thanks =]
http://www.freewebs.com/ana-beauty/inspiration.htm
http://www.everything2.com/index.pl?node_id=1081711
http://www.freewebs.com/wannabe110/index.htm
http://www.emaciatedbarbiedoll.page.tl/Home.htm
- Mood:hopeful
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| Hey babes.
Today was a good-bad-good day. I had a test this morning, which was open-note, so I think I did good, and second period was just weird.
Okay so there's this guy Alex. He is a blond (darker in the winter and spring), tallish, very cute, and nice abs. Last semester I sat next to him(before I sat next to my neighbor Jacob who is very hot, and I got closer to, oh and marble-oceanic blue eyes. God I could stare into them all day, thats my favorite part about talking to him!) and I got closer to him, and later in the semester, we would send notes, and have little inside jokes(cats!) and all the sweet things like that. I've always thought(and still do) of him as a friend. Never lovey-doveyish. Anyways now he sits behind me in computer, and we promised that we would be still the same talking buddy's no matter what. We still talk now, but he rather talk to these guys OB and Guy(pronouced Gee, and is also my neighbor, and is a REAL gentleman) about sports and stuff like that. We don't even have anymore inside jokes anymore. I got to know Brian more who is a cute asian. I just really miss me and Alex's little jokes. Anyways, I'll keep you guys updated on that.
So today, I wanted to start my very-low-calorie diet.
Not so good. I ate:
4 buffalo bites(kinda like deformed looking chicken nuggets that are spicy and slightly bigger)..................... 400 caloies (?)
Chocolate milk............................... 180 calories
Rice........................................... 400 caloires
Banana........................................ 75 calories
To a grand total of.............. 1055 calories!!!
NOO!
My goal was only 600 today?!?!
I'm very sickening. I hate it! I can't keep a fuck promise to myslef. But I did do some working out last night, and I kinda wanted to so I ate a peanut butter and jelly sandwich.
Omigod!
I only stuff my face, under pressure. Usually can go hours without food, but when I'm on a limited amount I freak out and think I'm going mad, but later regret it!
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I don't want to do this. Tommorow at school, I'm going to skip lunch and work on my project which I really need to that is due Thursday.
OH and I also broke the rule about telling no one, about your pro-ana. I told my best friend who HAPPENS to look like an anorexic but definitly isn't(she eats more than I reguraly do), and my other friend Tabatha who tells me everything in 4th period, so I felt like I should. They both overreacted.. especially Tabs.
Oh well. I'm skipping dinner for sure tonight.
I'll right more later. Time to find more thinspiration. - Location:home
- Mood:disappointed
 - Music:lollipop- lil wayne
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| YoOOooOOooOO!
Kay, my name is Yasmin. Thats all I'll give you about my name for now. Anyways, I think I'm imperfect. Yeah, yeah, yeah, don't start that "oh you beautiful on the inside and out" shit. I don't thin I'm ugly, or obese or stuff like that. I want to be perfect. It actually hit me last night...
Next year you want to be better right?
Um.. kinda yeah! So I made a list last night of all the things I want to be at the start of my sophmore year(yes I'm a freshman at the moment.. ). Its kinda too late for me to do anything till my birthday, which is in 10 days [May 8th]. So since summer is coming up, I want to change completely. Secretly I have no plans this summer.. so I will focus all of my energy on this summer.
So my plan for the end of '08 and the rest of my life is...
- Be the girl with the great body
- Be the girl with straight A's and great grades
- Be the girl that speaks more than English and Somali(Yes, I know Somali. You know that model Iman Ali and the girl on Americans Next Top Model Fatima.. yeah we are Somalians babes!)
- Be the girl that supposly knows everything(goes with number 2 but covering all things like life issues)
- Be the girl that is friends with everyone and can join anyone(because of personality, not the way I act or dress... I mean come on.. gangster and preppy in one day? Nope sweetie.)
- Be the girl that is great at sports
- Be the girl that did something AWESOME this weekend.. yeah maybe next year
- Be the girl that walks and talks elegantly
- Be the girl with long hair(currently short hair due to cutting it..)
- Be the girl that girl that can wear anything and looks GREAT
- Be the girl that kept a livejournal that basically organized her life.
Oh shit, thats alot of stuff....
Ok, thats all for now. But more will be added.
And of course I need support, so any ideas, suggestions, warnings.. please tell me!
I'm very nice and I love new things.
I will try to post alot.
=]
brb - Tags:new
- Mood:Inspired
- Music:Stupid Shit- Girlicious
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